Friday, September 5, 2014

Five for Friday

1.   Back to this.



  It's only the first week and I actually just said out loud to myself "Go away book!" and threw it on the ottoman after reading only 15 pages into it.


2.  I took this before my lifting workout this morning.   I'm pretty sure I could have been considered under the influence of drugs.   This shit is for real and we'll see how it works out for me.   I'm slightly scared of being in public after drinking it.



3.  Drunk pictures.   Went to the bar.  Drank too much.   And then you find random pictures on your phone the next day.  

I don't know this guy but apparently he was worthy of a picture.   He looks lonely.  


Creepy Sarah!


4.  WHOA DOUBLE RAINBOW OH MY GOD



5.  This bathroom at my gym takes the best muscle pictures!   And I guess I'm finally getting some to take pictures of!


Sunday, August 31, 2014

The Last Weekend of Summer

As I sit here on the last weekend before school starts up again, I can't help but reflect on the summer as a whole.   It has been a good summer.   While my kids are now ready to get back to school (and lets be honest, I'm ready for them to get back) I feel a pit in my stomach because I am so nervous for school to start back up again for me.   I have a pretty full schedule and as I flipped the calendar page to September this morning I can't help but notice how much is on there.   I am still working at the hospital/clinic, although my availability is less and then to top it off, the comedy club has won me back and I'll be picking up a few shifts a month there as well.

   Katelyn is on a traveling soccer team now and we will have many days of soccer ahead of us.   Kenzie is starting back at gymnastics and will be going to a new place this fall because I failed to sign her up at 6am on the day of registration and all classes were filled by the time I remembered it was registration day.   It will probably benefit her but my checking account is gonna be pissed as the price is four times more expensive then the previous location.   Live and learn.  

Fall is also racing season again.   I am no where near the place I was prior to my foot issues.   I'm slow as fuck and every run feels terrible.    Last weekend I did a 5k in the must humid weather I may have ever experienced.   I finished in 27:41 which is no where near a PR for me but also not as bad as I had expected myself to do so there is always that.   Katelyn also ran it and they got some pretty good pictures of her and one of me sleeping.  She got second in her age group and won some cheese and a nice mug for my coffee.



I have sort of given up on speed for the fall.   I am just going to struggle through it and then come winter/spring I'm going to start back up with speed work and I'm determined to get my pace back.   I am going to train for a spring half marathon for the first time in a long time.   I was always marathon training and not able to focus on speed for a half because of it.  That will all change this spring and I'm finally going to force a sub 2:00 half.   I can't believe I don't have one yet.  

There are still a few more races on the schedule for this fall.   September is Fox Cities Half Marathon.   October is Fall 50 and St. Joes 5k, November is Turkey Trot (5 miles), and December is Race for the light 5k.   We will see if I can get any others in there or not.  

As for now, I'm going to miss summer.   It was full of ups and downs and wonderful memorable moments.  





Wednesday, July 30, 2014

The Thigh Gap.

I've made mention of the thigh gap previously on my blog and how to fake the thigh gap for pictures but I feel as though Pinterest is flooded with the thigh gap right now.   I can't go to Pinterest without being bombarded with image after image of cute outfits on women who wear a girls size 8 jeans and have an insane thigh gap.   Yes, the outfit is adorable.   Will the outfit look like that on me?  God no.   I'll have muffin tops, thick thighs, and my real size B boobs to accompany the top.




Now, I'm not necessarily a hater of the thigh gap.   I just find that it's become such over kill.   It's so rare to see an outfit on Pinterest put on a woman that looks just like that.   A woman.   A woman with some curves.   A woman with some muscle.  A woman with big thighs.   A woman with love handles.   When will the love handles become a thing?  I can't wait for that day.   I'm all set.


Women come in all shapes and sizes so why are the images of the outfits we buy in all the same shaped women?   I understand some women are naturally thin and naturally have the thigh gap and I'm not hatin' on you!  I just wish that every time I opened my Pinterest I didn't have to see 50 pictures of you and would see some images more like this:

Yes I have a tramp stamp.   I got it illegally at 16 years old with my sisters stolen ID.  Not my proudest moment. 
Now obviously I care about my body too.   I work hard to keep my body looking some what healthy but at the same time I'm realistic with what I can achieve with my body type.   Right now I'm focusing on upper body strength because when I run, I sometimes look like this:


I'm extremely bony up top and it's not a great look.    People then assume I don't eat food because I wear loose tops and you  can see my collar bones and you can't see the love handles hanging over my shorts.   I eat.   A lot.  

Now it's has become my mission to just randomly search the internet and find women that are realistically shaped.  And get this.   In cute outfits too!   I'm determined.   I'm even going to hashtag that shit out with #RealWomen on my realistic outfits board.    I'm sure by the end of the week I'll have maybe 3 pins in there.
Disclaimer:   I don't hate skinny women with a thigh gap.  Many would consider me skinny as well.   I am just sick of our society making it look like the only acceptable body type out there are the ones that have no fat or muscle on them.   This isn't healthy or realistic and I'm just really over it right now.  

Sunday, July 20, 2014

The run that you almost couldn't call a run.

After 4 extremely long and grumpy weeks I finally decided to give my foot a good try at running and see how it would go.   The good news is that it didn't really hurt during the run.   The bad news is that it hurts after the run again and felt pretty much like it did previously.    At this point.   Oh well.   I am over it.   I can't get a straight diagnosis to save my life, even with an MRI in there.   I have decided I'm just going to run for a while and see how that goes.   Obviously if the pain gets to "this sucks a lot" point, I might have to reassess.

We did 5 miles to ease back into running and it was just as bad as you would expect after dropping cardio out of your life entirely for 4 weeks.   .75 of a mile in and I was begging for the watch to sound for 1 mile.   I was breathing heavy and bitching the entire time and pretty much was the whiniest I've been in a long long time.    I just truly hate being the one that makes someone elses run suck that bad.

What I looked like the entire time.

I did a whole lot of nothing this weekend.   My plan was to be outside as much as possible and that was sort of a success as I went to a bar outside and then I also went to a restaurant outside.    Besides that, I planned to go to the pool with the kids on Saturday and Sunday and they ditched me both days to hang out with their grandmas.   There's possibly something wrong with that picture but whatevs.


This week I also finished my Anatomy and Physiology class.   It feels great that I will get enough time off to enjoy some of the summer.   Not that I don't love learning A&P.   It's fun....


If A&P did anything, it made me more nervous for what's to come.  

This week I only work two days and I plan on getting to the pool at least two of the other days.   No taking no for an answer this time!   They are stuck with me.  The summer is so short that I want to be outside the entire time as long as it's warm.  


Friday, July 18, 2014

Three Things Thursday (A Day Late!)

1.  On Wednesday I went to get a second opinion on my foot.  It started off oddly.   She looked at my MRI results and went on saying how she doesn't like MRI's because they will find a lot of things wrong but none of them could be the cause of the pain.   She went on to ask where my pain was and not give me a clear diagnosis as well.  Finally toward the end of the discussing I asked her point blank what she thought was wrong with my foot because prior to this she just was going over what WASN'T wrong with my foot.    She said she thinks I could have some instability in my foot causing the pain.   Huh.   That's a lot of pain for instability.   I just don't get it.   She recommends custom orthotics.   I asked if she could show me a way to tape it until my orthotics came in (3ish weeks) and she said that Podiatrists hate taping and that's more of a physical therapist thing.   Again...I was sort of just speechless.   I'm going to try to run on Saturday.   I will see how it feels and go from there.   I don't know what else to do.   She said it can take 1-3 months to feel better and even then, it can come back.   Wonderful.

2.  Me and the girls went raspberry picking on Wednesday for the very first time.   It's so different then strawberry picking!  I literally worked in the same space the entire time and only moved about 2 feet down the line and managed to pick all of these.


Raspberry picking is a bit messier though and also they have thorns and will scratch the heck out of your legs.


The kids managed to pick only one of those pints.   They just kept picking them and eating them and don't even want to imagine just how many they consumed during that 30 or so minutes.

3.  I finished my Anatomy and Physiology class!  I even managed to finish it two weeks early.   Holy crap, I actually get a few weeks off this summer and I'm so excited.   I am nervous for the full time schooling to start in the fall.   So far I have only been part time and even that is hard enough on my brain.   Here's to another check mark on the list of classes to complete!  Only another year and a half left!

Tuesday, July 15, 2014

A life without running is no life for me.

So without running, I'm pretty much losing my mind.   As this point I still do not know when I will be able to get back out there and attempt to run again.   I made an appointment for a second opinion and that is on Wednesday so I will wait until that and see what they say about my injury.   I've been keeping busy with lifting but there is a cardio void that needs to be filled.

Just because I can't run, doesn't mean I don't go to running events.   Actually it does but I made one exception.   PaceSetters held a run/pool party and while others were running, I was sitting around the pool drinking beer.   It worked out well until the next morning when my hangover was fierce.   Why are my hangovers sooo bad with old age?

I was probably drunk here

I've also been working on my tan because what else can I do?   I decided to take my kids to the pool this past week and my day started like this:




And ended like this:




It's hard to tell from the blood filled wound but that cut was deep.  I knew the second she came up to me screaming that it needed to be glued/sutured.   After a while I finally got the story on what happened.   She was running in the shallow water, as was another girl.   They collided and Katelyn had her goggles on.   Katelyn's goggles hit the other girls forehead and the goggles cut her.   They cut her deep, man.



I don't really understand how goggles could cause such an injury but once I inspected the goggles (well known brand will remain nameless for now) I saw that the inside had a very sharp edge right below the plastic suction area.   Seems like a design flaw to me.  

For now, she's sporting one heck of a shiner and looks pretty tough.

1 day after 
3 days after.   

And since we are on the topic of Katelyn.   How is it possible that my baby can wear women's shoes?   She fits in them quite nicely.   It's super surreal to me.  



Hopefully I will have some good news after Wednesday and they will magically say I can run soon (I doubt it).    If not, you can find me at one of the local bars.

Monday, June 30, 2014

Well this sucks

I knew something was up with my foot even before The Longest Day.   It was painful the first run after Cellcom and hasn't quit since.   I could get about a mile in and then the pain would creep in like the first beer on an empty stomach.  You could feel it and then it would continuously get worse until eventually it went numb.

 I went to see the Podiatrist prior to the longest day and the minimal explanation and diagnosis left me uncertain of what to do next.   She had done an X-Ray and confirmed there was no break but nothing else was exactly discussed.   I wondered if a cortisone shot would work so I called back and she refused to give me one until I had an MRI done.    So lets do it.   Here are the findings:


I still am not sure what to make of it or how long the recovery will take.   I can't find anything conclusive on Dr. Google.    My doctor said that wearing athletic shoes, rest, ice, etc would help recovery and that it could take anywhere from 1-3 months before it is healed.   That seems like a really long window of time with nothing more I can do but rest it.    I'm probably over thinking this and just hating the fact that I can't run for who knows how long but this sucks.  

Anyone have any information on this and any suggestions?  

And just so this post isn't completely stupid with crappy injury talk, I have this.